There is a before and after for everything. Life is before death and we Buddhism believed there is life after death as well. But I often wonder, what’s before life then? We believe in religions to prepare ourselves well so that the uncertain may seemingly be clear to us.

Like a composition, our lives are set out with an introduction, the body, the ending or so to speak, the conclusion. The similarities between the two? Is that how we came into this world is how we are going to end up leaving it. Alone and with nothing.

It is hard to describe what I am feeling now. The thoughts about losing you are not just words that could define, it cannot be written and it can only be felt. Ive always thought that you are too dependent on me and needs me around all the time. But I come to realize, it is probably the other way round. I need you more than you needed me. You are the heart of my very soul and I have come to a point in my life knowing that I can't quite live without you.