It’s Friday again in just a blink! Time moves too quickly during happy times.

Today I lug my final bag of belongings from the office and all of a sudden my desk looks relatively neat and empty. Now, my room is filled with IWC bags that I am too lazy to unpack.

I officially announce that I am on my switch off mode… because... my holidays are starting tomorrow!!! Woo hoo!! I am in such exuberant spirits ☺ I am looking at the one-week break I have and it is just not sufficient. If only… if only I could have a month… sigh

Lately have been weeks of farewell lunches and I’m piling on fats so conveniently like I slip on my clothes. Damn. Anyhow, it is like the thousandth time I am hearing things about my new boss. The first reaction so far I received were the frightened and worried face on them and the second thing that comes along was: ”Wah you heard about XX’s stories right?” LOL Even uncle Larry told Jenny that he is worried for little Vivian. So cute, this larry.

But in utmost honesty, I am quite pleased with myself that I wasn’t sublimely perturbed at all hearing the same comments from different people. I do not want to be judgmental about someone based on comments but rather to judge him/her myself. Of course I do not deny that there are endless questions. If it were being laid out, it’d be boundless although I must say I have come to terms with a lot more things as I age. Slowly but surely.

In any case, I see that being pessimistic always helps in most situations. For me, that is. I would not be optimistic about situations and very often; I end up receiving the worst disappointments. No expectations, no disappointment. Simple as that.

On a happier note, I am really looking forward to my long awaited break. Even if it means just lazing at home. Thing is, one week is too short and I need to run my errands, do my checkup, read about the new brand, make some notes, finish my book, bring my grandma and aunt out, bring pearl for her checkup etc. Not exactly a break eh? !@#$%

I wouldn’t have done a day trip if given a choice. If not for the handover, I would have stayed 2 more days, make an appointment to do my IPL and freckle remover LOL

Well, at least I had some Thai food before leaving. That is some consolation. The bomb went off on Sunday night at the bus stop opposite Central and there I was on Monday where everything seemed to look normal. People go to work as usual and the place doesn’t look like there was a commotion the night before. They seemed to have gotten used to such chaos. I looked up at Central where the entire mall is now hoarded up waiting to be overhauled. It is sad. A land once filled with nice and happy people now seemed to be perpetually angry. Sigh.

Digressing, I have one major thing bothering me at my new workplace. That is the inflexibility of downloading applications and logging into social network sites. I could understand that facebook is blocked as I get really edgy seeing my colleague log on FB games first thing the comp is switched on like as if I’m on my lotus notes. BUT MSN!?!? I cannot take this!! I feel like they have disconnected me to the outside world. Gosh… I need my msn ☹

I know I could be online with my iphone but as much as I love my iphone, I really hate typing with it. I thought about it and I think I found a solution. I need the ipad. Good idea eh?

Indeed, it was a pretty good weekend I must say. Short however, like I always complain.

I watched two shows over the weekend and thumbs up for both. Jay Chou concert was on Friday and I think I pretty much raved about how good it was on FB. I still cant get over the concert cos it was really too good to just sleep over and forget about it the next day. Doesn’t do justice to him, so lets give him a bit more coverage and talk about it LOL And so I have to add, ill be kicking myself hard if I hadn’t gone up to shake his hands haha I feel like a teenager all over again.

Saturday wasn’t too bad, lazing @ home, had my sat routine otah (20 sticks each time I buy), went grocery shopping, walk the girls, cook dinner and watch my series with the four girls taking each corner of the bed. Fulfilling.

Watched the movie inception 3 hours ago. I love it! Kept me thinking until now. Christopher Nolan is a genius. Who could actually think of something so amazing like he does? I would watch this movie a second time ☺ I gather that you need to be somewhat eccentric to come up with something so out of the norm and complicated. Like my all time favorite, Tim Burton. Weird but very talented.

Kudos to the geniuses.

Getting late! Gonna turn in, its Bangkok tomorrow… Good night.

Time and tide wait for no man indeed. The week passed effortlessly while I struggled with everything beneath. I thought handing over should be a breeze and I should probably not be too bothered about work now. Truth is, I have been rather ‘good’ still. For instance, I have been decently early for work, still following up with my running projects, which I genuinely thought I would care less about it LOL

On the brighter side, at least for once at work, I am able to just drop my work and leave for the day without any worries. That feels good.

Lucky for me, I think the new ‘vivian’ learns pretty quickly. Having FMCG experience proves to help a lot. I think she will do well ☺

Handing over period is definitely an enjoyable phase. As for now, i'm going to say goodnight and embrace the weekends. Which for me of course, weekend starts on Thursday and so is my drinking session ;)

Au Revoir

Sometimes you don't know what keeps you up. It could just be the overbearing silence or perhaps even the fearful anticipation of what tomorrow may bring.

Uncertainty creeps in every now and then and just kept me thinking on the obstacle ill face in my new journey. Remind myself again and again the things I need to do. So many images flashing across my mind without any order at all.

Steal glances in the dark convincing myself it is just me and pearl engulfing in darkness. At times the air seemed stale and I seemed to hear my heart beating.

This goes on for some time until it disperses at the back of my mind, embracing equanimity as my night unfolds.

Sweet dreams, I hope.

Why are weekends just 2 days and not 3? I ask this every sunday night. Dreads the thought when night falls, monday rise.

Not so, with flu more like it. It has been ages I fell sick and today it just hit me like a plague. Pop my pills and decided to sleep early tonight.

5 hours ago, I pen my signature on the dotted line and left with a glee hinged on my face. Its official and I’m looking forward to it. Congratulations? Wish me luck is probably what I need more.

Yawn… the medicine is kicking in. Returning to my book as my night unfolds. Sweet Dreams.

Of the comfort zone was definitely not an easy choice. Especially so when one have been so used to stepping into the same place, seeing the same people and ranting about the same issues for the past 6.5 years.

In the past on most days, I am caught between heaven and earth and sometimes in Middle Street waiting to get to the other side. Except that I have been here too long and getting out to breathe something new seems like a figment of my imagination. It used to be just a feeling but it’s grown and became real.

The turmoil of emotions is somewhat familiar. It reminds me of my first dive ;) Excited and worried at the same time. Questions of uncertainty pop up again and again. I convince myself with the leap of faith.

Nothing ends. Every ending is a continuation, every ending leads to something else and with that, one desperately seeks familiarity. And when it reaches out to you, familiarity then breeds comfort and then it is a whole new cycle again.

Following up on some pictures on our drinking session at KL ;)

Contemplated if I should even open up this page and start blogging. I think I've been through this cycle again and again. Creating a blog and abandon it. ;P